Sunday, November 8, 2015

a hiatus

I've finally cobbled together enough spare minutes to type all this out, and now I'm scared to begin. So let's just rip the bandaid off and say it outright: Book III is going to come out much later than anticipated. Possibly a year or two late. As in, like, 2017.

I know. I KNOW.

I love writing Vessel. Like I've said before, I can't even conceive of not finishing it, and I won't stop until the series is done. These characters have been an enormous part of my inner life for so long now. The story itself is a trusted friend at this point, a refuge, a place to go instantly when I am bored or angry or elated, to tinker around and work my shit out, and feel the thrill of conveying a scene exactly as I see it in my head. And best of all, publishing it, sharing it, has forged an instant and incredible link with a sprinkling of people across the continent, people who love this story as much as I do, people who move me to make it the best it can be.

One thing Vessel doesn't do, however, is generate income. I write it because I love to, because, as Elizabeth Reyes put it, I must. And for five years or more, I was fortunate enough to find jobs that allowed me plenty of writing time, knowing all the while that one day this holiday would end. That a more viable career, or another trip to school, would one day become a necessity I could no longer put off. Well, that day came along in the middle of September, in the form of an opportunity I couldn't pass up: namely, the rare chance to apprentice under a master tattoo artist.

Tattooing has long topped the list of careers I give enough fucks to actually strive toward. Drawing was always my first love, not to mention the thing I happen to be best at; tattoos, my vice whenever I have the extra cash. I love the artwork, the styles, the people, the culture, the intimacy, the challenge of pain, the ritual and tradition, the colorful balance between reverence and irreverence. Given a totally unexpected shot at breaking into this notoriously difficult-to-enter industry, to learn skills that will allow me to one day earn a better living (and hopefully more time for Vessel) doing something that satisfies me every bit as much as writing . . . well, I hope you can understand why I couldn't walk away from that.

Obviously my heart is over the moon for this new opportunity, but it also breaks that Vessel has to take a back seat for a while. If it were humanly possible, you know I'd claw out the time to write. Between the apprenticeship and my day job, however, I'm now working 75-90 hours a week. That is not a typo. Most days I consider it an honest to god miracle if I'm able to take a shower. And this madness will go on for some time. A year or more, easily. You can appreciate, then, the agonizing Sophie's choice I now make. This might be the only chance I ever have to claim a more secure and enjoyable future for myself, but it comes at the cost of setting aside that which I hold fiercely dear, that which I have poured myself into for nearly a decade. I feel like I'm leaving my children at an orphanage. I feel . . . like this is the hardest thing I've ever done, and it's only beginning. This is the fight of my life, friends.

Just know this. Know that I mean it when I say that for as long as I am able to compose words, Vessel will remain a major priority in my life. The series will be completed. All five books. Maybe more. You'll see. Double-pinky kiss-kiss.

Boys. Jordan. Hang in there. I'm coming back for you.

Thursday, September 17, 2015

quick post: Book II Giveaway!

I'm moving to yet another too-expensive studio so I'm cleaning house. Still need a copy of Book II? Know someone who'd love Vessel? Good news! I'm giving away 20 copies of Exodus with another goodreads giveaway! Ends September 22nd--enter now!

Don't forget: Book I is still available for free as ebook on any device! 



Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Vessel prayer candles are here! (sort of)

Hey, remember when I wanted to make Vessel prayer candles for the shop but it never happened because the packaging and shipping would've been too costly?

SOLUTION: I'm just selling the decals! At cost. For fun. Sized to fit perfectly on the 8" jar candles you can find at any Dollar Store, Dollar Tree, and most drug stores and grocers (for about $1 each)--and of course anything else you want to stick them on. Your laptop, your accordion case, your cat, go nuts! The world is your sexy, sexy shrine. Priced at $6 for a set of 5, with free shipping, because who doesn't love cheap stickers? Here's the purchase page. Light 'em up, friends! 

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Belated: The Vessel finally have a sigil.

Today in "Well that took long enough", we finally have a design for the Vessel's pentagonal sigil, along with their individual glyphs. You know, the pretty logo found all over Elysium? The image etched on Jordan's handy Hollow-detecting necklace? Several previous versions exist, like the hideous one on the cocktail e-book that must now be replaced, and let's never forget the fact that my symmetrical fire glyphs always end up looking vaginal, but that's all behind us now. I've finally come up with a ringer...

Wanna guess which glyph is which?
Answers are at the end of the post. 

I wanted something crude and prehistoric, rune-like, simpler than more elegant elemental glyphs like those beauties featured on Avatar. And more distinguishable from one another than the symbols of Wicca, which become easily confused when rotated. The designer in me also required them to be similar in weight and style, so after doodling dozens of little circular symbols, I tried using only straight lines to achieve some sense of unity. ViolĂ !

Have you made your guesses yet? Okay, answer time! One goal was to make the glyphs as intuitive as possible, but symbol design is hard! Let's see if I did well enough to get the point across to you, dear reader.

The crossed lines on top represent Ghi, of course: light, sun, stars, cosmos, a spark, the heavens, etc.
The two vertical lines are for Jesse: a column of air or an upward path.

The horizontal line is for Corin: a river or stream, or the horizon over the water.

The upward peak is for Jackson: a crag of earth, a hill or mountain.

Last but not least, the forked lines are for Khan: representing flame, fire (and hey, it finally doesn't look like a vagina!).

Behold the fiery vaginas of yore.

So, how did you do?

Thursday, July 16, 2015

Yes, I know how it ends: Story building without getting stuck.

The first thing people ask when you tell them you're writing fiction, especially a series, is usually: Do you know how it ends? This is often followed by: Do you have it all written down, or is it all in your mind? How do you keep up with it all?

The answers, respectively, are YES and HAHAHAHAHA. As Zadie Smith so beautifully illustrates in one of my favorite author pep talks, story building can be as organized or haphazard as one needs it to be to move forward. My story building method often involves listening to lots of embarrassing music while exercising, staring into space at length, starting outlines that mean nothing by the time I finish them, and finding completely obsolete notes to myself tucked away in every drawer, notebook, and text file I touch. If my apartment strikes you as neat, know that I am compensating for the tangled heap of fantasy parts that occupies the better part of my brain at all times. Weirdly, and I'm sure many an author will agree, I know where it's all going. I swear I do. Yes, I inevitably have to rip up and re-lay more than half the tracks, but the big picture--as well as all the juicy bits--motors right along in a never-ending playback reel in my head. Strange cargo faithfully appears when I get stuck, story manna, magically making jagged bits fall into place and sending the book along its way again. Characters and scenes that once seemed vitally important to me get booted. Brilliant solutions that wake me in the night get misplaced, and occasionally I do have to pull the brakes and organize things, but in general, I don't worry about forgetting key elements. The ideas that show up and stick are the ones that don't get left in the dust. Sounds reckless, but that's how it is. That's how I write. Your mileage may vary. But if you find yourself stranded in the middle of your own novel, here are three things I'd tell anyone to remember when checking under the hood. 

1. Kill, kill, kill . . .
Given 15 years to brew in my head, Vessel has certainly changed, in leaps and bounds, over time. The entire series morphed from one end to another, ten times over, before I was truly ready to write and publish it as it exists today. Characters, names, vital scenes, entire story arcs, so many beloved components are forever falling by the wayside, for any number of reasons. The importance doesn't translate to the reader, the rest of the story changed and this character or that revelation no longer fits, or it just looks plain stupid once it's written down. Put simply, don't just kill your darlings. Slaughter them by the truckload. If the work you finish today in no way relates to what you wrote two years ago, your story is probably better for it. You've dropped unnecessary baggage and transformed it into something lean and delicious. It's impossible not to get attached to your words, but whip out that scalpel anyway. If a line feels cheesy, lose it--no matter how much you love it. If a scene feels more like a speed bump, dump it into a scrap file. Trust me: you'll find those words a few years down the road and be glad they didn't make the cut. If you have to fight the rest of your novel just to accommodate them, then they aren't worth keeping. Conversely . . . 

2. Give in.
. . . Occasionally the ideas you feel like ignoring at first are the ones who belong. I have no clue how this happens, but it does. Sometimes an idea comes along unbidden, an idea that would require huge efforts to incorporate. A new setting presents itself--and will entail lots of wardrobe and equipment changes. A character insists on evolving in a direction you never anticipated. A new twist occurs to you, one that doesn't quite jive with what's already published, something nearly impossible to knit in within what remains of the series. And yet it simply must be so, and there you are, eating Lucky Charms dry out of a coffee mug at 3am and wondering how you're going to make Character A completely unaware of Character B's existence, even though they conversed in Book I. You might even loathe the idea, but if it keeps nagging at you in juuuust the right way, you'll know. Find some way to work the idea in, and your story will benefit. (Warning, Vessel Book I spoiler ahead.) Jordan's amputation is a prime example. I thought it too dark and dramatic for the kind of series I wanted Vessel to be, and yet . . . once the idea came to me, her fate was as good as sealed. I fought it. I battled with that decision throughout the writing of Advent. "But Tom!" you say, "The book starts with the line My name is Jordan Murphy and I'm the fastest one-armed bartender in the world." Yes it does, my pretties, but the writing certainly didn't start there. Which brings me to . . .  

3. Jump around.
Your story will break down at times. You'll find yourself sitting there with no way to move it forward. Get out. Stretch. Walk away. Jump ahead and write another part, something you're excited about. Hell, write the ending. Write three endings. This is how the bulk of Vessel gets written, by the way. Don't worry about how you'll fill in the gaps or get your characters from point A to point B. You will. You might even encounter some means of jump-starting the earlier part while working out the details of the newer part. Or you might write something that will render the earlier part useless, and have to do away with it entirely. Either way, you'll get un-stuck, and getting un-stuck is half the battle of writing.

The other half? Probably back pain. Or remembering not to talk to yourself on the elliptical. Whatever form your battles take, trust your story and you'll make it to the end, I promise!

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

One Weird Trick to Improve Productivity

Much to my dismay, we're approaching the 2 year mark since Exodus was published, with nary a release date in site for Deliverance. At my most optimistic, a December or early 2016 release seem possible (but don't quote me on that ;D), far from my promise of completing this book more quickly than the last one. Deliverance is challenging me in a number of ways, but my biggest hurdle by far has nothing to do with its tangled, sometimes brutal plot. You see, I possess the innate ability to do less with more time. Yep. The more time I have, the less I seem to be able to do with it.

I've always been a sucker for organization, a complete office supply fetishist, a lover of to-do lists and planners. During one semester in college, I somehow balanced 19 credit hours, five part-time jobs, two campus organizations, and a relationship. And I loved it. Now, with virtually no obligations beyond my day job, I somehow let weeks go by without getting a single word on a page.

I don't berate myself. Those words aren't going to get written retro-actively, and the best I can do is find ways to make the most of today and tomorrow. Naturally, the Staples freak in me turns to to-do lists and various productivity models when I hit a wall, and I've recently resurrected one method that has worked for me in the past. Since I've found it so effective, I wanted to share it with any of you who are struggling to get shit done

It's called "Don't Break The Chain" and it's so simple you'll almost be mad that it works. I came across the method, which was apparently popularized by Jerry Seinfeld (weird), via this Lifehacker post. Basically, if there's something you need to get done every day, you get one of those year-at-a-glance calendars and stick it on the wall. For every day you do the thing, you mark a big X on that day. Eventually, you'll have a few X's all in a row, a visual representation of your momentum--and an incentive to keep going to avoid "breaking the chain". That's literally it. You can put up multiple calendars for multiple tasks. You can spice it up any way you want. There are countless Don't Break The Chain calendars available to print right from your computer if you want something a little more aesthetically pleasing, and pretty mobile apps of course.

I tend to do better at things when I physically put them together, so I made my own. My goals are to spend significant time writing (or editing) every day, blog once a week, and work out three times a week. So I made one grid representing every day left in the year for writing, and two more representing the weeks left in the year for working out and blogging. It's not a perfect system, and I've already broken my writing chain (hey, how could I write during this particular Pride weekend???), but I've found that it motivates me to get my butt in front of the computer (or to the gym) with serious frequency. Maybe it will work for you, too!

And hey, guess who already has her X for blogging this week...